Hmm I don't know which is worse, having had one or the fact that you've had enough to know when your having another. Yes it's that time of year again, time for my MENTAL BREAKDOWN. *CRAZY PEOPLE CHEERING* They said way back when, that shooting an animal suffering from rabies was the most effective method of stopping it. I wish for an end to the constant suffering. I'm not suicidal though, not in a long shot. But pain is pain, and oblivion is the end of pain. This is my 7th breakdown since 2005. Where does the time go really? Today i took a swing at one of my friends, and for 5 minutes i felt satisfied. Why is it that aggression satisfies my depression?

This mad fool has had enough pain for 4 lifetimes, but alas life is cruel. I will experience more before i die, and probably even more after that.

I'm out.